I recently read through some old emails from this time last year, just after the girls were born and their subsequent time in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU). I’d already forgotten about some of the premature baby milestones we experienced, I wanted to make sure I always had a record of them, for myself and for the girls, and so I began this post. What you’ll find here are emails that I mostly wrote to The Mothership during that time.

12 January 2016 (replying to my Mother-in-Law after sending a group photo of Hubby)

I’m absolutely exhausted but can’t sleep. Every time I drift off my wound wakes me. Looking forward to seeing the girls and I’ve already produced quite a bit of colostrum for them which is awesome. Feel so happy!

So glad you guys are down here and just really excited about everything at the moment. Miss Little Man terribly too. Michael is tired but seems to be sleeping well – even through my hourly observations!

ATK
14 January 2016

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First hold with Naomi x

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Daddy taking Fen’s temperature.

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What a roller coaster!!

Hoping to see the girls soon although I’ve been told I’m moving to postnatal (currently still in antenatal). Planning on holding Fen for the first time then Michael will help me express overnight.

Been getting a few syringes here and there. Had to have another blood transfusion yesterday (4 in total) and we noticed how much that affected my supply. The express machine hurts my nipples (they said how red and engorged they were) so a really amazing midwife today said leave it for 24 hours and just hand express. She got quite a bit out once they’d eased. I had a big cry with her and she just said breast isn’t the be all and end all. Very supportive. Since then they’ve been less sore and a second midwife got over 2 mil!!! I was so proud I took photos!

They’re giving most of my milk to Fen since she’s the smallest but they give both swabs of it to suck – they love it!!

It’s been such a big experience, I’ve cried a lot (hormones and just the situation) because going to NICU can be quite overwhelming. However I only have praise for the staff in there. They’re amazing and so understanding. I’ll be supplying chocolates for the next few weeks I think!!!

I don’t know what else to tell you. I’m so tired but getting better and mobile all the time. Not sure when I’ll be discharged or what happens with the girls being transferred to private when they’re ready.

House settles tomor so Michael is trying to deal with that too.

All in all I’m happy and just looking forward to bringing them home eventually. They’re both doing really well. Fen has the rep of small and fiesty in NICU whereas Naomi is known as being chilled out. Just like when they were in my belly!!!! They look a lot like Little Man did too x
15 January 2016
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For jaundice. Both under there. Apparently 50% of full term babies go under for a day too x

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We couldn’t get Fen out but I helped wash her and then when they came to get blood I helped give her the pain relief (sugary drink).

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16 January 2016

Last night x (first hold of Fen in a joint cuddle).

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19 January 2016

Girls going really really well. Both off their drips and just having feeds. Hoping to space Naomi’s out from 2 to 3 hourly and if she can keep it down they’ll keep increasing it. Fen is slightly behind being smaller but still eating heaps. Chunky monkeys!! Hopefully they’ll start putting weight on this week.

20 January 2016

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(The in-laws) are seeing the girls tomorrow with me when I go. Told them they can’t hold them though due to the restrictions. I think they’re planning on coming down for Little Man’s birthday as planned so they can see them more then as hopefully they’ll be home or close to leaving hospital.

Naomi latched today. She’s too little to do the sucking-swallowing-breathing technique at the moment but she wanted milk. They’re upping the feeds too so both going really well.

Feeling pretty exhausted. I’ve been spending around 4 hours every morning at hospital then going at night but that’ll stop as I’ll stay home to watch LM. Feels very unnatural leaving without them but I’m on the countdown. Just want to get them home. Apparently Naomi might have to stay on caffeine (that makes her remember to breathe) until 35 weeks then they observe her for 5 days. They’re both so strong I don’t think they’ll be any issues. Just want them with me.

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Naomi’s put on 40g today and Fen hasn’t lost any!!!!! Yay!!!!! Huge milestone reached.

Not sure about Hubby’s work. I’m scared it’ll mean I can’t get to the hospital because I can’t drive until late February. He wants to be home when they are so its just a difficult situation to navigate. I’m trying not to neglect Little Man at the same time but I feel like I’m dropping the ball with him. We had nice cuddles tonight though so hopefully with Hubby going to hospital in the evenings we can bond a bit more.
24 January 2016
Girls doing really well and putting on weight. Naomi graduated to a crib today! Both are going on the breast too so even though they’re not feeding it’s getting them prepared for when they can.
26 January 2016
Naomi is in a cot now!! Both starting to go on the booby too x
27 January 2016

Fen is now in a cot too (yay!) photos attached. Both doing excellent and called the ‘superstars of NICU’ during morning rounds. I forget they’re in ICU sometimes because they’re doing so well.

Naomi put on 90g yesterday (chunky monkey) so is now over birth weight. Fen put on 30g and is also over birth weight which is awesome.

Apparently feeding will be the thing that delays being discharged home. I’m not expressing when they’re home as I won’t have the time so if I can’t feed them on the breast together we’ll do formula and bottles. They’re really understanding in NICU.
30 January 2016

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Girls doing good. Fen put on 60g and Naomi 70g today. They’re chubbing out which is good.

Had a bad day yesterday as was told they needed a really invasive eye test so had a big cry. Later on when speaking to the person who does it she said the girls don’t need it so feel better. Will double check with the neonatologist on Monday even though the paediatrician agreed.

Had a dizzy spell on Thursday where I thought I was going to pass out but I think I was just exhausted. Slept through last night and feel much better today.

continued/reply…

Yes premie related but they’re right on the cusp of meeting the requirements and the lady who does didn’t think they meet the criteria. It’s 30 weeks and under and birth weight below 1250g. The girls were 30+5 and well over that weight so….

If they need it they need it but I just wanted to avoid it as they use eye drops then clamps to keep the eyes open. A few babies had it the other day and they scream the place down then need comforting the rest of the day. It’s also advised that parents don’t watch so yeah, I really don’t want to put them through it. Really hoping the doctors on rounds on Monday agree.

They’ll have the hearing test before being discharged home as normal but I’m not concerned about either. They’re both responding to noise and looking around being alert.

They’re coming off the caffeine and sodium on Monday so once they’re stable not having apnoea’s then it’s only putting on weight and getting rid of tube feeding keeping them in.

Fen is doing really well with establishing breast feeding. Naomi is lazy and just falls asleep with the nipple shield in her mouth!! Super funny and cute though. They should have their first proper bath tomorrow x
31 January 2016 (in reply to The Mothership missing and wanting to see us all)

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I know you are. It feels weird that no one has really seen them. They’ll still be newborn when you’re out (visiting) though as we have premmie age and corrected age.

Bit worried today as Naomi had a temp and was lethargic so they examined her and did some extra blood tests but she picked up by midday and everything came back ok. They said she could have a small cold but something like that can cause major issues but I think she was just having an off day. Will call before bedtime to check up on them.
2 February 2016
Fen’s first bath – she loved it!
3 February 2016

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Well they’re both putting heaps of weight on which is great.

Fen is awesome at the breast and necked the bottle. Naomi is a bit slower but is getting there. They need to be on 5 suck feeds a day (breast or bottle or combined feeding) before their feed tubes can come out.

We’re working on 2 feeds a day at the moment.

They’ve gone off caffeine and doing well so just the sodium soon and they’ll just be on their fed vitamins. Neonatologist said he thinks they’ll be home before due date (16 March) because they’re doing so well. He said he wouldn’t normal say that but with my girls he will! I didn’t even ask him he just offered his opinion so I’m super excited. Hoping this month.

Also got the sh*ts and started driving yesterday which has made life easier. Me and Little Man going shops this morning as we need some time together. Daycare said he keeps asking for me and getting upset after sleeps x
4 February 2016
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Was placed in a double crib and Naomi slowly made her way over to Fen!!!!! X

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Apparently the girls keep needing to be separated!!!! Hahahaha x
ATK
7 February 2016
(Removal of feed tubes) They use them when necessary but on 3 suck feeds hopefully going up to 4.
11 February 2016

First hold x

15 February 2016

First day home! x

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