I still don’t know what I want to do when I grow up. I love writing and photography. I enjoy wearing my pyjamas in the daytime. I don’t like working for the man (or woman!). But I’m a hard worker and I’m passionate about whatever it is I’m doing.
Identifying myself as a blogger, a writer, is not something I’ve ever really done. I’m kinda’ embarrassed to tell people I meet because blogging just doesnt seem like a “real job”. I know rationally I have nothing to be embarrassed about because it is a bonafide profession. Maybe, as with always something that you’ve created, I’m scared of judgement, of criticism. Of “who the heck is this person and why is she talking about gnomes and cats so much?”.
I tell a lie. I did mention my blog to a NICU nurse who reacted genuinely excited but when she asked what it is I write about and I nervously replied “well, erm, me”, I still couldn’t sell it and the conversation swiftly changed. Maybe if I’d have said it with jazz hands I’d have come across more confident.
I’ve always had the way of thinking that you just concentrate on what you’re doing and don’t worry about anyone else. This is the advice I’d give friends. I’d also tell a friend to go for it, stop worrying about what other people are thinking, if you love what you’re doing it’ll come through and that’s the main thing. But, I’ve not really been taking my own advice lately. I’ll blame hormones.
Last night Hubby and I were chatting about what renovations we’d like to do and he mentioned that I should start earning money. I started to reply that I’ve been thinking of applying for something easy and local when he cut in and said “with your blogging”. I felt myself give this huge involuntary smile. What? I asked. You really think I could earn a wage? He told me I was a good writer and that he believes in me. It was a really wonderful thing to hear because I honestly haven’t been thinking that way. I guess it was the push I needed because soon after I found myself writing this post and putting myself out there in a way I haven’t done so much before.
If you read something you like then please Like, Comment or Share it. Becoming a follower and Liking my social media pages would also mean a great deal to me. This is the way my blog and random musings can grow and reach a wider audience and I so appreciate the help. You don’t know how uncomfortable asking for this makes me but I understand it’s the nature of business.
The only thing stopping me is me and I don’t like that feeling anymore. K x