We went to the shops today!!!!! By ourselves!!!!! YESSSSS!!!! I DID IT!!!!
Okay, firstly, apologies for the overuse of exclamation marks (#sorrynotsorry). Secondly, this is the first time I’ve ventured out in this way with the girls.
Normally one of us does a weekly shop or Hubby picks stuff up in the week after work because it’s physically (and sometimes mentally) very difficult to do otherwise. But today I needed nappies. I had one left in the house, partly because I like a challenge and to live dangerously but also because I’d forgotten to ask Hubby to grab some.
I got a few other essential items like cat food (Oscar is STARVING the poor thing, you’d think he’d been fed a week ago instead of last night the way he’d carried on this morning) and teabags.
Anyway, I just wanted to record this feeling of success and joy. I wanted to thank the woman who served me and chatted to me about the girls and her own kids, giving me the suggestion of simply using blankets for the trolley now but buying an insert for when the girls are sitting up. She probably doesn’t realise that having that conversation made me really happy because… I’m not sure why. Maybe because it was a bit of adult time.
Feeling isolated and that doing simple things like a quick food shop was too much of a struggle has undoubtedly contributed to my Post Natal Depression. So today was a massive win for me in terms of clawing back some independence and having a sense of achievement. I’m trying to navigate a life with two small babies along with no family support and, admittedly, that got me down but I’m slowly realising it doesn’t have to be that way. Yes it was always going to be harder with twins but the reality is, the rewards are much greater too.
Happy Friday folks, have a good’un. K x
*I wrote this a couple of weeks ago and forgot to post at the time but when I read it I still go “yay me!” 🤗